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It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm afraid things are really quite busy here, and unfortunately our liaison has been compromised. Well...so have a lot of people, actually.

Are you still yourself if you're not the self you were? It's the kind of conversation we've had a lot of times, around here. I've always only been myself, but if I woke up tomorrow as someone else, would I still be me even if I wasn't?

I think rather than worrying about that the best thing I can do is focus on trying to sort things out as best I can. I'm a little worried, actually, but I think I can manage to give everyone a shot even if I can't fix things on my own or even with everyone's help.

But you can help! Or at least I think it will help if you think about what it means to be "you". It's okay if that answer changes or doesn't. Just hold onto that concept and don't let it go. And maybe tell other people what you think it means? Not like I'm saying you have to talk about that. I think usually you all just talk about anything, and I think that is also a good way to hold onto who you are and who you want to be. Sometimes I think it'd be fun, all those parties or little plans. I've never spent much time outside of these walls, did you know?

I don't have time to really ramble, though. Those of you who know what I mean, we're doing our best. Those of you who don't, you do your best too. Pay attention to the things you tell yourself, and I'll try to fix what I can fix.

Please take care.

Joanne Wiseman
Technician 2nd class
Retr

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It seems I was Retrospec all along.

I wouldn't mind a little bit of help. My only employee was one that did not have an app, and he grew quite despondent about having to run the entire restaurant on his own. He had a good sense of patience and kindness to him to keep working until the last week of the month before leaving when he realized he wasn't getting paid as I couldn't write him paychecks, haha.

A good man. I will miss his free labor, haha.

No. Don't even joke about that when we all know how people feel about them.

I feel obligated to help you when I have time, be grateful. Also it's good ramen.

[ Kei feels like asking why Koga's name is different, but he gives up on it. It doesn't matter. It seems like their relationship is the same, and so making things difficult now will complicate things in the future. ]

I take it back, then.

Also, please do not slander me so openly and to my face. You both really seem to enjoy bullying me about ramen, and I am about ready to be brought to tears about it.

your tear ducts should be all dried up by now with all the spicy shit you've been feeding yourself with

be careful what you're getting into, kazuki
this is for your own good

I add coconut milk to the broth. My mom loved spicy stuff.

you can do that?

[ headtilt ]

Yeah. You can use cheese, raw egg whites to cook in the soup, even honey. Whatever works with the original flavors.

that actually sounds delicious ♪
what else can you make?

Basic Japanese dishes and a few western ones, I just like to experiment.

I lived on my own and eating out gets expensive over time. I know how to deal with spicy shit because my mom loved that stuff.

i can only assume that your mom wasn't as addicted to spicy stuff compared to That Guy over there

[ he... really loves his mother, doesn't he... ]

[ :( ]

She did not. Is that all Kei eats to feel something in that religious shell of his body?

fucker drizzled some special kind of habanero sauce all over an acai bowl last month and ate the entire thing with a straight face

if this is how he purges the sins from his body i won't be surprised at this point

An acai bowl? What the fuck.

Can you actually defeat sin with sin like that? Those acai berries didn't deserve that.

My, my, you're being quite protective.

And not for your uncle.

Should I feel a moment of sorrow that my nephew cannot even take a moment to feel sympathy for the person being driven to tears? Or should I feel pride in you looking out for Kazuki?

I'll go with pride. [ But seriously, how do you two know each other? What's changed? Does he have to worry about the cat getting out of the bag? Well, he's thrown a bit of bait and hope to find out what's going on. ]

that's because he's only met you very recently, right? meanwhile i've gotten used to your antics

maybe

[ ... ]

i'll need to talk to you about all of this later

Used to my antics. How kind.

[ ... Rah-row. Congratulations, Kei, you played yourself. ]

Understood.

You could never be as incompetent as them, okay? Look, it's not shittalk this time.

I don't get your sense of humor at all though.

Not to worry. Few understand my humor much to my heartbreak.

.... still, are you legitimately worried about me? How kind, how kind. If you are, could you please not do anything to tamper with my mapo tofu. That would truly show me that you're feeling repentant for your behavior. :)

I think I'll be an unkind wolf and accept I cannot repent for my sins. I like having a tongue and fucking with the spicy stuff you give me. I don't want to waste food.

I suppose I have to admit defeat, then. That's heartbreaking in a way. But in other ways, it's good you can admit things so easily. It speaks well for you, Kazuki.

You can ease some of your heartbreak with more of your undefiled mapo tofu, I'm sure.

Edited 2018-07-06 04:27 (UTC)

I suppose that I must.
I shall make it extra spicy to make up for both of you not enjoying it.