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[recollecters]

It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm afraid things are really quite busy here, and unfortunately our liaison has been compromised. Well...so have a lot of people, actually. Are you still yourself if you're not the self you were? It's the kind of conversation we've had a lot of times, around here. I've always only been myself, but if I woke up tomorrow as someone else, would I still be me even if I wasn't? I think rather than worrying about that the best thing I can do is focus on trying to sort things out as best I can. I'm a little worried, actually, but I think I can manage to give everyone a shot even if I can't fix things on my own or even with everyone's help. But you can help! Or at least I think it will help if you think about what it means to be "you". It's okay if that answer changes or doesn't. Just hold onto that concept and don't let it go. And maybe tell other people what you think it means? Not like I'm saying you have to talk about that. I think usually you all just talk about anything, and I think that is also a good way to hold onto who you are and who you want to be. Sometimes I think it'd be fun, all those parties or little plans. I've never spent much time outside of these walls, did you know? I don't have time to really ramble, though. Those of you who know what I mean, we're doing our best. Those of you who don't, you do your best too. Pay attention to the things you tell yourself, and I'll try to fix what I can fix. Please take care. Joanne Wiseman Technician 2nd class Retrspec Incorporated Per the mod plotting post, you may use this post to obtain one of this month's freebies! This month's freebie can be earned by turning in a thread on this post that has 10 or more consecutive comments from you. Additionally per the mod plotting post, new AUs are now considered live and operational, though the dreamshares are not yet! Please feel free to use this post as a network mingle. Every toplevel can be considered a new post, and threadjacking is permitted. No NPC response will be given. Usernames are the character's full real AU names, not aliases or chosen nicknames or usernames, and seemed to have filled themselves in; nothing characters do can change or obscure their names currently.

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[hauhra]

In other words, my answer was incomplete and therefore untrue.

Would these "complications" make it more complete and worthy of holding onto?

Or am I just a stupid, complicated nerd?

[godcards]

I don't see why those things have to be mutually exclusive. I also don't see why you're turning this on me... I asked the question in the first place. Stupid.

[hauhra]

I wasn't turning anything on you.

I was genuinely asking because I genuinely want to know.

[godcards]

So I have to decide your identity now? That's a pretty tall order, don't you think?

[hauhra]

Maybe I just want to know what you think of me.

Besides, I'm not exactly sure I would leave my identity up to you... you'd just pick something embarrassing.

[godcards]

I think you're a stupid nerd.

[hauhra]

You forgot the most important detail, Malik.

I'm an attractive, stupid nerd... it's what sets me apart from the other stupid nerds.

[godcards]

So that's "you"... The "you" you have to hold on to.

Seems like you finally answered the question after all.

[hauhra]

I see... by challenging me the way you did, you set me up for this moment all along.

I should have seen it coming, and yet I still fell for it... you know me too well, Malik.

[godcards]

I like to think so... And I got what I wanted, which was an answer. Really you could have just said something from the get go and avoided all this... but I knew you wouldn't.

[hauhra]

I did, though.

I said I was a stupid nerd, but apparently I needed at least two adjectives to completely answer the question.

...thanks, though. I can definitely hold onto this. It's what sets me apart from the King of Thieves and Zorc and the spirit of the Millennium Ring, too.

[godcards]

You seemed more confident about the second answer.

...Are you saying you're more attractive in this life than the last?

[hauhra]

On a scale of 1 to 4, with one being the most attractive, I would say I'm at least a two.

The buff, scar-faced thief is a 1, the pasty looking Ring spirit is a 3, and the demon with the dragon dick is definitely a 4.

[godcards]

The wh

No

Nevermind

I'm just going to pretend I didn't read that last part.

[hauhra]

The truth is, he almost didn't make the list at all for that exact reason... but he's a part of me, or who I used to be, so he had to be included.

Too bad.

But those would have been your choices in our last life... I would say that you got pretty lucky in this one.

[godcards]

No one counts using fours, Bakhura!!! It's three or five!

[hauhra]

Unless you want to count the scrawny kid that the Ring spirit chooses to possess, there's only four of me... therefore, it's 1 out of 4.

Besides, I don't think you really want five of me running around, do you?

[godcards]

Then pick three!! THREE!!

[hauhra]

Very well.

I'll exclude the dragon dick this time: the King of Thieves is a 1, I'm a 2, and the Ring spirit is a 3.

Better?

[godcards]

Better.

Don't do that again.

[hauhra]

What? Rate myself?

If I recall correctly, you were the one who wanted to know.

Were you disappointed with the answers?

[godcards]

That's not what I asked and you know it.

I'm disappointed you included the... dragon.

[hauhra]

Like it or not, it was me at one point.

Besides, how do you think I feel? I'm disappointed that the dragon is even included... and I thought his appearance in that tabletop roleplaying game my other self played was weird.

I don't understand why it's such a big deal, anyway. Is it because you were trying to compliment me?

[godcards]

Anyway, Bakhura, that aside... Do you think you've gotten any closer to holding onto your "true self"?

[hauhra]

Yeah.

Attractive or not, they're completely different from me. They led lives a world apart from mine, striving for goals that were understandable but unique to their extreme circumstances and making sacrifices for those goals that I could never dream of giving what I have now up for.