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It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm afraid things are really quite busy here, and unfortunately our liaison has been compromised. Well...so have a lot of people, actually.

Are you still yourself if you're not the self you were? It's the kind of conversation we've had a lot of times, around here. I've always only been myself, but if I woke up tomorrow as someone else, would I still be me even if I wasn't?

I think rather than worrying about that the best thing I can do is focus on trying to sort things out as best I can. I'm a little worried, actually, but I think I can manage to give everyone a shot even if I can't fix things on my own or even with everyone's help.

But you can help! Or at least I think it will help if you think about what it means to be "you". It's okay if that answer changes or doesn't. Just hold onto that concept and don't let it go. And maybe tell other people what you think it means? Not like I'm saying you have to talk about that. I think usually you all just talk about anything, and I think that is also a good way to hold onto who you are and who you want to be. Sometimes I think it'd be fun, all those parties or little plans. I've never spent much time outside of these walls, did you know?

I don't have time to really ramble, though. Those of you who know what I mean, we're doing our best. Those of you who don't, you do your best too. Pay attention to the things you tell yourself, and I'll try to fix what I can fix.

Please take care.

Joanne Wiseman
Technician 2nd class
Retr

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The catch is that you'll have to befriend one of those people that you hate. Truly befriend them. And I'll do what I can to ease some of your problems. Sound fair?

is it that easy to make real friends?

besides, i wasn't talking about you specifically

Not at all.
But neither will be helping you out with your problems.
So it's a fair deal.

But since you weren't talking about me specifically. I can tell you the price. The price most likely would be your pride.

how is giving a poor person money not the easiest thing in the w

no you know what i don't want the answer to that because you've probably already explained it enough and it just went over my head

bold of you to assume i haven't been hungry enough to swallow it before

Edited 2018-07-04 06:47 (UTC)

Haha. You're catching on to my prattling ways, I'm pleased.

I suppose it is bold of me, but then, does that not speak well for you? It means that you still have your pride and dignity that a stranger believes you've never had to compromise it before.

maybe you just need to change your mental image of what a poor person looks and talks and acts like

Perhaps!

But I'm giving you a compliment so I won't take back what I said.

i wasn't asking you to

i just wish people who have money didn't apparently think we were all so broken and in despair all the time

i'm poor AND i'm depressed thanks they're two separate things

I am sorry that you have to deal with that, too.
It certainly makes it harder.
But you've yet to be broken under it all.
So congratulations, your spirit still shines bright.

is that how it works

it's flickering really low lately but that's not a surprise to you by now i guess

It isn't.

But it's still flickering which means you haven't given up yet.

can we go back to the part where i thought you were an asshole

Go right ahead.

Shall I say something rude to help?

if you want.

i'll know your heart's not in it, though.

Hm, true enough.

What should I do for you, then?

i don't know
things are weird right now but i'm sure you can already tell that

I can.

Perhaps, you need some time to process all I have said?

i think i do

you said a lot of things that i need to think about

Very well.

I shall leave you to it, then. Please attempt to take care of yourself while you think on all that I said, too. Forgive me. You seem like the sort that may end up in a worst state if I didn't say something so obvious, because you have had few to watch out for you.

Well, until later, then.