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It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm afraid things are really quite busy here, and unfortunately our liaison has been compromised. Well...so have a lot of people, actually.

Are you still yourself if you're not the self you were? It's the kind of conversation we've had a lot of times, around here. I've always only been myself, but if I woke up tomorrow as someone else, would I still be me even if I wasn't?

I think rather than worrying about that the best thing I can do is focus on trying to sort things out as best I can. I'm a little worried, actually, but I think I can manage to give everyone a shot even if I can't fix things on my own or even with everyone's help.

But you can help! Or at least I think it will help if you think about what it means to be "you". It's okay if that answer changes or doesn't. Just hold onto that concept and don't let it go. And maybe tell other people what you think it means? Not like I'm saying you have to talk about that. I think usually you all just talk about anything, and I think that is also a good way to hold onto who you are and who you want to be. Sometimes I think it'd be fun, all those parties or little plans. I've never spent much time outside of these walls, did you know?

I don't have time to really ramble, though. Those of you who know what I mean, we're doing our best. Those of you who don't, you do your best too. Pay attention to the things you tell yourself, and I'll try to fix what I can fix.

Please take care.

Joanne Wiseman
Technician 2nd class
Retr

spec Incorporated

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theyre like children with magnifying glasses
theyre either hoping to make us squirm or completely naive

that's so much more pessimistic than most responses i get
i like it honestly
it's refreshing

would call it more realistic than pessimistic myself
dont see the point in sugarcoating all of this

there really isn't much of a difference, is there
at least not that i've found by talking to people who claim themselves to be realists

to be fair weve found ourselves in a particularly shitty situation
if reality werent so unpleasant thered probably be more of a difference

i can't say i've found much to complain about, personally speaking

really?
the fake memories other lies and the world falling apart dont bother you much?

i wouldn't say the memories are fake for one
they've had impact on our lives after all
but that's getting into philosophical territory
unless you really want to discuss the hedonism machine experiment i'll spare you

memories of fake lives then
however you want to phrase it

do you really have such little faith in the experiences that shaped you
honestly i find the whole thing more interesting than aggravating

not sure how you got that idea
its more the opposite
i know what my life was like and dont buy into any of this fake bullshit
doesnt mean its not irritating as hell though

which part of it are you considering fake
i've seen it argued both ways

the supposed memories

ah yes
see for some reason
people seem to consider their memories here to be the fake ones
like the things we're all getting shoved in our heads are somehow more real
i don't really question much either way
the memories i've been getting have been pretty fun
and the life i have now isn't terrible and so not much to complain about

thats a strange perspective to have
i know this life is real because ive actually lived it
cant say the same for the other memories

not to mention theyre not remotely realistic in my case
so that makes it pretty clear cut

wishful thinking maybe
i think i was an important person to my supposed world
so i can see where that would be interesting if true

guess that makes sense for people with good memories
cant understand the people whove gotten back terrible ones and still want it all to be true though

well
i wasn't an important person in a good way
so i may not be the best to talk

not sure i want to ask the story behind that...

i don't even know the story yet
though i imagine there is one!
because i think i was a supervillain
big plans to end the world and melodramatic speeches about how i'm going to do things
and i had a big evil building full of creepy obsessive paintings

if there isn't a story
and it turns out i was just crazy or something
i'm going to be a little mad

odds are probably in your favor
they seem to be fond of creating wild stories rather than disappointing ones
theres probably some wild backstory that doesnt really explain it all but tries to anyway