[text] i could say i'm sorry but i'm not (except i am. i really, really am.)

[frostythehitman]

I've finally got this song together, but I'm still stumped on the title. I'm putting the lyrics in here for anyone who's got any ideas. Consider this an open call for song title suggestions.


Lyrics:
You punched a hole in my heart, and now
I'm an empty vessel, waiting for the music to fill the blank spaces.
What am I supposed to do now?
Nothing left but to forget all the sneering faces

I feel like a forgotten bag of chips abandoned on the streets, my soul shattered and scattering to the winds like potato leaves.
I’d break the whole world if I could
Just to make sure no one ever has to grieves
Again, and I'd break the whole world but I don't think that I should

The emptiness inside of me is hardening like cement
And now there's nothing that can fit through the cracks and spaces
Nothing left but to watch the spiraling descent
Nothing left but to remember all the sneering faces

I feel like a forgotten bag of chips abandoned on the streets, my soul shattered and scattering to the winds like potato leaves.
I’d break the whole world if I could
Just to make sure no one ever has to grieves
Again, and I'd break the whole world but I don't think that I should

[fade out]

Comments

[frostythehitman]

You like teaching more than you like performing?

[voicelessresistance]

It's just a different way to reach people.

It's not the same, of course.

I do miss certain things, though. I mean, who wouldn't?

But my music is still out there. People still listen to it. And I can always make more whenever I want to.

[frostythehitman]

Well, when you put it that way.

So what kind of music stuff do you teach?

[voicelessresistance]

Intro to Music Theory, which is the 100 class, and Harmony and Function, which is a 200 level.

And some languages.

[frostythehitman]

[ For being a musician, he sure knows so little about what those classes would entail that he can't even really respond to that. ]

And languages? The surprises just keep on coming.

Which ones?

[voicelessresistance]

French, Spanish and sometimes German.

[She was a little bit of a prodigy.]

[frostythehitman]

Jeez, slow down! How do you even have the time to learn three languages, forget about teaching?

I can barely keep up in Spanish class.

[voicelessresistance]

I have a bit of a gift for them, if I'm being honest. I started learning when I was pretty young.

It's just a matter of what you're good at, I suppose.

[frostythehitman]

I guess so.

Not like I've got a lot going for me in the "good at stuff" department, though.

[voicelessresistance]

That's hardly true.

You wrote a song.
That's more than most people ever do.

[frostythehitman]

You got that right at least.

But nah, I mean it more like. Music's nice but it's just a side thing, you know?

[voicelessresistance]

Not to me.
But I suppose.

What is your 'main' thing then?

[frostythehitman]

[ Punching people in the face. ]

Football.

[voicelessresistance]

[But he repeats himself.]

Oh? Do you play professionally?

[frostythehitman]

I play for the school, if that's what you mean. I'm the team's star linebacker.

[voicelessresistance]

I'm afraid I don't follow the school sports teams very much.

But that's certainly something to be proud of. Is it what you're hoping to do once you graduate as well?

[frostythehitman]

Not really. I kind of got shoved into this against my will.

I might do college. Or I could always just join the army.

[voicelessresistance]

Those are very different choices.

I hope you're giving it a lot of thought.

[frostythehitman]

I'm 16, I don't have to give this thought until at least next year.

Besides, who said I can't do both? The ROTC is always looking for warm bodies.

[voicelessresistance]

Next year will be here sooner than you think. But that's fair.

You can.

But I've found the military tends to change people in ways they don't really expect.

[frostythehitman]

[ WOW, is she civiliansplaining the military to him??? WOW!!!! ]

Yeah, I know.

But it's not about you, it's about protecting your country and honoring the people who keep us all safe.

I don't know yet if that's where I want to go, but if I do, then whatever happens to me is a price I'm willing to pay in the name of protecting the United States.

[voicelessresistance]

You're sixteen.
Everything is about you and the choices to make to shape who you will be at 26.
And 56.
Just think it over.

[frostythehitman]

When did I say I was going to make this decision lightly, exactly?

I get the concern, but I know what I'm talking about. I've spent my whole life on army bases, so I know what the army is like. If I do it, it's not gonna be on some random whim. And if I don't do it, that won't be on a whim either.

[ At least as far as what he plans on doing. Whether or not it actually ends up that way, well...James doesn't have the best track record of sticking to the plan. ]