Text - Kind of Freaking out Here

[true_noir]

Chloe Bouchard 3/21 near Viea

This is awful, and I do not know how to cope with this at all. Anyone with relationship advice please speak with me, because I am having a very serious problem right now due to these visions we keep having.

[Somebody got another memory regain recently, and it might have involved kissing someone who was totally not Chloe's girlfriend in France. And, while accidents might have happened over the course of several years here in America, she'd been good about being faithful, so the memory was seriously disturbing, especially because she had felt more in love in that memory than she ever had in her 'real life,' and it was giving her a major problem.

And she couldn't go to the father confessor, because seriously, how do you talk to a catholic priest about that sort of thing? Short answer? You don't.]

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[caelestialis]

What's wrong? I can try to help you out to the best of my abilities.

[momentaryspring]

Uh. Hope you're all right.

[ no relationship advice forthcoming, n o p e ]

[trivialization]

'Having visions' is a matter of concern a few steps beyond the aid of relationship advice, I should think.

But please explain, if I can suggest anything I will.

[true_noir]

I kissed her! I was kissing her in that vision, that girl that I keep seeing! What do I do about this? I couldn't be kissing her!

[true_noir]

How could I be alright? I was kissing a stranger, a woman I do not remember knowing in the first place. There is nothing alright about this, Ryoga! I do not know what to do about this.

[true_noir]

It is relationship advice about what was seen in the vision. I was kissing someone who is not my girlfriend, someone I had seen in these visions before. This is intolerable, because I cannot get her out of my mind!

[trivialization]

If I was seeing something like that, though unbidden, it would stay in my mind too.

Are you worried that it might have happened? Or is it only the thought that is the problem?

[caelestialis]

[ okay wait she needs some context to this...! ]

You've been seeing a girl in your visions? Can I ask how long has that been happening? And what were the visions like prior to this one?

[momentaryspring]

Well... it's not that bad, is it? There could be some reason why you were

Kissing her

For instance, maybe you were helping her rehearse for a play.

[ Why did Chloe get more action than he did? ]

[true_noir]

I have been seeing visions since about a week after the app downloaded onto my phone. She has appeared in those visions since earlier this month. The contents are a bit long-winded for me to go into right now. I am not thinking clearly as it is.

[true_noir]

Yes, because I was in love with her and wished to do things with her. I remember the emotions I was feeling very clearly. And believe me, this was no play Ryoga. I refuse to speak of the details in public.

[Seriously! Children might see! It was scandalous!

Also, she really didn't in her memory. That kiss was totally not returned.]

[true_noir]

I am very much worried that it may have happened. I am happily in a relationship, and though the distance has been troubling at times, I have tried not to lapse on that loyalty for several years!

[Ok.... she'd kind of kissed Emilie when she'd gotten drunk one night, but it hadn't gone past that, and they'd both remained just friends. But that was sort of the point. She wasn't a cheater!]

[caelestialis]

No, I understand. Thank you for telling me all you can about this.

I can see why you feel conflicted, I think. She must have seem important to keep appearing in the visions and for this to turn up out of the blue? Quite a plot twist to face. Are you looking for advice about how to address this to her if you ever run into the person or something else?

[true_noir]

That is just it. I am terrified if I see her, I'll want her again. She did not return the kiss. She just stood there, like I was not there, and I was smiling as if it were normal, as if I loved that about her.

And what do I tell my actual girlfriend if I see this woman again? Or what do I even tell her now? She is not on the app. She has no idea about any of this.

[momentaryspring]

Oh.

Are you going to tell your girlfriend?

[true_noir]

Absolutely not! She's not on the app. How would she react to me talking about a weird vision where I'm kissing strange girls that's vivid enough to feel real afterwards?

[momentaryspring]

Well, if you keep it secret but it gets out somehow, won't it be even worse???

Unless you weren't dating her at the time.

[true_noir]

Neither of us used social media before I moved. She lives in the foothills of the Pyrenees in France. Unless everyone starts remembering these things, she can't possibly find out. And I don't know when this happened.

[momentaryspring]

I guess.

[ it still didn't... sound great, though... ]

So what are you going to do?

[caelestialis]

This woman you keep seeing - You've never met her before, correct? You've only seen her in these visions?

I feel like the best case in this scenario then is maybe tell your partner about the visions if you're comfortable with the idea. At the very least, tell her what's going on with this app so she has an understanding of what's happening here in Recolle? That way you have support and she's not locked out of loop.

If you need someone to back you up on those claims, I can help you with that.

[bold_in_deed]

uh oh. trouble in paradise?

[me_matey]

girl

calm down

its not cheating if it didnt actually happen

and as far as u know it didnt

[trivialization]

[Catherine has... a perhaps more stereotypically blase attitude towards infidelity; such things are not to be applauded, of course, but they do happen. In the course of human events, as they say.]

Well, whether it happened or not, it's a matter out of your control now. In the past. I think the more important question is whether you should meet this girl in the future. Do you feel like you wouldn't be able to control yourself?

[true_noir]

Never once. I've only seen her in these visions, but it feels as if in them I've known her my whole life.

And, I can't really do that. Have you spoken with anyone who does not have the app about horses? They refuse to believe you, think you are crazy for going on about it. All of the things we've seen that they haven't, they don't seem able to believe. She isn't on this app.

[true_noir]

[No, no it didn't. Especially because she was sure that she'd been more in love with this stranger than she ever had her current girlfriend, to the point of obsession.]

I don't really know yet. I realize I've asked an impossible question. How does one deal with something like this? I'm going to probably have some tea, calm down, and I'm going to call her tonight when I'm calm, just to remind myself of my feelings for her.

But this whole situation is putting a significant strain on our relationship. Mostly for me, but definitely a strain.