Retrospec, 4/7 | The images stuck in your head

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki 4/7 near Birch Hills, Recollé

okay, I wanted to ask people about something (⊃д⊂) what if one of the things you "remember" is something really bad??? I mean like... criminal bad? …φ(。。*) how do you get that out of your head? honestly I get queasy when someone draws my blood, and these memories are way worse. in relates news I guess I'd like to talk to anyone who has been getting memories of like... fighting and stuff, you know? or I guess memories of old-timey stuff too (ㆆᴗㆆ)

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[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto Sometimes it helps to just talk about it with someone you trust. I'm not sure there are ways to get memories out of your head, but talking about it can help you come to terms with it.

Or maybe you could start a journal and write about it. And know that you're not alone and there will always be someone willing to listen.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki you're absolutely right, but it's just so hard to get the words out, you know?
I wish I could talk to my mom honestly, but she doesn't have the app so (´・ω・｀)
Soujackapoo Catsuki a journal might not be a bad idea though
if nothing else just to try to summarize it because it's all a jumble

[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto Yeah. It can be really hard. It's hard to even ask for help sometimes, but I'm glad you were able to do it. Have you tried calling her about it?
Inuki Kyatto You could make it like a mindmap, right? And that way you don't have to worry about people reading it,
since journals can be private.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki well, I mean I visit her all the time, but... since she doesn't have the app, she doesn't remember that there used to be horses or normal fruit, she doesn't know anything weird is happening, you know?
if I told her that I was dreaming about stabbing people, she'd probably want me to go back to my therapist :/
Soujackapoo Catsuki yeah... there are some details I don't want to remember. but maybe getting a clear picture will answer some questions.

[starfruitfrog]

Yuki Sato You could tell her that it's a dream, right? Just because you're dreaming of stabbing people might not mean that you're actually going to do it.
Yuki Sato I hope so.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki mmm I suppose so
Soujackapoo Catsuki i just don't want her to think I'm having mental problems
I mean other than I guess trauma at having seen myself stab people
not that I could actually prove anything, I mean maybe we're all going mad

[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto I hope we're not all going mad.
Inuki Kyatto Maybe just reassure her that you're not having mental problems. Seeing yourself stab people must really suck though. I'm sorry you had to see something like that.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki I mean neither alternative is all that nice
maybe it would be better to be going mad instead of actually having stabbed people, you know?
Soujackapoo Catsuki it really did suck... but thank you. it's nice to know I'm not alone, at least.

[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto If neither of them is nice, I doubt that you could actually say one is better than the other. But I guess you could get help if you were going mad so that does kind of make it better.
Inuki Kyatto You're not. I'm sure there are people who would listen if you needed it. I'm Yuki, by the way. Since my name is kinda stuck right now.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki yeah, that's kind of what I was thinking. I used to have a really nice therapist...
I don't think there's a readily available cure for "you stabbed people, and that makes you awful"
Soujackapoo Catsuki the names are pretty cute, though (๑￫ܫ￩)
I'm Soujirou

[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto You could try and get in contact with them?
And no, I guess there really isn't a cure for that. Besides maybe jail...
Inuki Kyatto They're kinda cute....that's true. But having someone try and call me Inuki would be weird.
Nice to meet you, Soujirou.