Retrospec, 4/7 | The images stuck in your head

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki 4/7 near Birch Hills, Recollé

okay, I wanted to ask people about something (⊃д⊂) what if one of the things you "remember" is something really bad??? I mean like... criminal bad? …φ(。。*) how do you get that out of your head? honestly I get queasy when someone draws my blood, and these memories are way worse. in relates news I guess I'd like to talk to anyone who has been getting memories of like... fighting and stuff, you know? or I guess memories of old-timey stuff too (ㆆᴗㆆ)

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[okitactless]

[Yamato's really, really not in the mood to talk to anybody right now, truth be told. But Ryusei's already bothered him today, so he figures he might as well check Retrospec, since scrolling mindlessly is a good way to fill the hours when you're a millennial.

But Soujirou is Soujirou, and if this is about what Yamato thinks it's about, then he knows how awful those haunting thoughts must be. He would feel terrible for ignoring this, and the last thing he needs right now is to be even more of a terrible friend.]

Pomesada Yamato the kids aren't helping?

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki they are a bit...
Soujackapoo Catsuki but it's also like... it feels a bit inappropriate, you know? (︶︹︺)
Soujackapoo Catsuki it's really not the place to keep thinking about violence

[okitactless]

Pomesada Yamato That makes sense

[And it wouldn't stop the memories from kicking back in the minute Soujirou's alone, either.

Normally he'd recommend something like vigorous exercise, since exhaustion is a good distraction, but since that's not really an option...]

Pomesada Yamato Is there some kind of project you can start? Something else to focus on might help

[rhapsodeity]

umm nothing really helped me
eventually i talked to the person in my halluncinomemory and that kind of was nice and i think i needed that though!

i remember fighting but im not sure on old timey stuff!!!!!!!

[spes_phthisica]

hmm
i've never even seen the people in my halluncinomemories though ●︿●
they looked japanese and they were wearing old fashioned clothes thats about it

were you fighting with some kind of weapon?

[starfruitfrog]

Inuki Kyatto Sometimes it helps to just talk about it with someone you trust. I'm not sure there are ways to get memories out of your head, but talking about it can help you come to terms with it.

Or maybe you could start a journal and write about it. And know that you're not alone and there will always be someone willing to listen.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki you're absolutely right, but it's just so hard to get the words out, you know?
I wish I could talk to my mom honestly, but she doesn't have the app so (´・ω・｀)
Soujackapoo Catsuki a journal might not be a bad idea though
if nothing else just to try to summarize it because it's all a jumble

[vendettastool]

You don't. You just have to look for something to remind yourself that it isn't you. At least not really.

Why do you want to talk to people about memories of fighting?

[spes_phthisica]

I mean... the worst part is that in the memory, it doesn't even feel like it's a bad thing, you know?
like I'm not doing it because I'm evil it's just like any other job...

so I guess I wanted to compare to other people's memories of fighting, if they have them. see if it's similar, I guess?

[outpunch]

Juzoo Sakakuruff I'm just gonna pretend that I didn't see the first part because I'm that nice
Juzoo Sakakuruff Not sure if it's possible to get rid of memories just like that
Juzoo Sakakuruff What about fighting? What did you remember?I...kind of remembered something too, but it's ducking unbelievable
Juzoo Sakakuruff Ugh duck this autocorrect

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki I remember practicing swordplay and then stabbing a lot of people
which seems pretty unbelievable to me too so do your worst

Soujackapoo Catsuki but seriously I've never actually stabbed anyone in real life :/
the worst I've done is been in a couple of bar fights, that kind of stuff

[tosa]

( What a weirdo ominous post. Ryusei doesn't respond right away when he sees it, opting to go get a snack do the dailies on some of his mobile games. No offense but this is just how he thinks, okay! )

Mewsei Sakameowto would you fight a bear

( How is this even related. )

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki um
I'm not sure why I would unless it was attacking me
bears are kind of cute?
Soujackapoo Catsuki did you fight a bear in a memory???

[doublesmall]

if people did remember doing 'criminal bad' things do you really think they'd just throw that out there in public?

anyway what kind of fighting are you talking here, anything specific

[spes_phthisica]

well um
i just did, didn't I?

sword fighting
like with an actual katana

[samuraisoul]

Mewbei Nyankōbō I have memories of being a samurai in the sengoku era of Japan... greeting the navy of a warlord from that time.
Mewbei Nyankōbō In full armour, a sword at my side. Knowing I knew how to use it, and well at that.
Mewbei Nyankōbō No memories of battle yet but at this rate I'm expecting it to happen...

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki oh wow okay that sounds really cool
Soujackapoo Catsuki I mean if I'm honest I'm pretty terrible at history but that's pretty impressive, right?
how did you know which era you were in?

[longwei2go]

i had a dream where i wiped out what i think was a mafia syndicates goons and trashed a nightclub
it was awesome
mostly awesome

[spes_phthisica]

(゜Д゜*)
honestly that sounds kind of terrifying
but at least you were definitely fighting criminals right?

[frostythehitman]

You don't get it out of your head. It just sits there constantly, like a lead balloon or a rotting brick.

So far I'm just avoiding the talking fruit and writing about it.

[spes_phthisica]

mmm yeah it's starting to seem that way
I'm kind of afraid of what the next memory is going to be at this point
at least in this memory I was only stabbing people's shoulders :/

[notyourutopian]

Elliecat If you figure it out, let me know.
Elliecat But I've gotten a few memories like that. Fighting I mean.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki i will (´・＿・`)
fighting how?

[fashionable_yapping]

Nina Écarlate I remember being in a war or something. I had a whole dog army attacking this wall, and the people on the wall were throwing exploding fruits. It was pretty weird.

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki I think I was in a war too!
Soujackapoo Catsuki but uh... the whole "dog army, exploding fruit" thing definitely wasn't happening
honestly that sounds like a video game or something