Retrospec, 4/7 | The images stuck in your head

[spes_phthisica]

Soujackapoo Catsuki 4/7 near Birch Hills, Recollé

okay, I wanted to ask people about something (⊃д⊂) what if one of the things you "remember" is something really bad??? I mean like... criminal bad? …φ(。。*) how do you get that out of your head? honestly I get queasy when someone draws my blood, and these memories are way worse. in relates news I guess I'd like to talk to anyone who has been getting memories of like... fighting and stuff, you know? or I guess memories of old-timey stuff too (ㆆᴗㆆ)

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[rhapsodeity]

oh wow!
thats amazing :O
was it the same sword in your hallucinomemory??

its ok!
it happened but now its over and they are ok here
and well yes but no, its kind of complicated

[spes_phthisica]

nnno i don't think so
i had a different memory later and i think an older kid broke that sword
like on purpose broke that sword right in front of me

oh!
you mean in the memory you hurt a person you know, but they're fine here?

[rhapsodeity]

hmm!
that is strange but kind of fascinating
do you think you knew that older kid?
as in before they broke your sword

they are fine here but
well this is kind of difficult to explain probably.....
but they told me that they were ok in the hallucinomemory too

[spes_phthisica]

I'm not sure
he was probably a teenager and I was younger than that
we were all alone in a forest together in the middle of the night
I was cold and crying and I think there was blood on my clothes
it was really weird :P

huh
maybe it looked like something bad happened but it was a mistake?
like sometimes when you're scared you think things look much worse than they are

[rhapsodeity]

oh!!!!!!
i was in a forest too i suppose
but i wasnt wearing something old fashioned....
i had on an evening gown
it was so fancy
probably the fanciest dress i have ever seen!

hmmm
well there was a bad person who made me do something bad basically
so you are not actually wrong

[spes_phthisica]

it's almost like a puzzle, isn't it?
people remembering similar things but not exactly the same thing
maybe that actually means something

[It would be so nice to think that it all had some kind of meaning - less lonely, definitely, than being completely on your own.]

that sounds really scary though
i don't like the thought of being made to hurt people
though I don't like the thought of me hurting people willingly either

[rhapsodeity]

yeah!
i think that sounds a lot nicer
and maybe you will meet someone from your hallucinomemories sooner than later

i dont think they are comparable in a manner of speaking
they are both just awful...
awful and bad things that you cannot forget now
i am just a high school student????
why is this even a thing lol

[spes_phthisica]

maybe!
at least a couple of my friends are dreaming things about swords and fighting too

it's true ●︿●
that really can't be easy though
high school is usually a mess even without all of this weird stuff
I know I had enough to deal with as it was