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Maurice was going to do this, but Maurice sucks so I sent him home before he could. Anyway, some of you may have noticed our new poll feature! We just don't have the time and resources to cater to all your "where is x item, what the fuck" complaints, so we had to streamline. The polls were the result of that! Coded them myself. I mean, Maurice did some of it, but I did most of it.

So basically we're democratically crowd-sourcing what we're going to bother to fix for you! You can send thank you notes to the building, HR doesn't mind. So far it seems like you all care about the color blue most, so we fixed it!

A little, anyway. I suggest a bracing walk through the woods if you particularly missed the color and don't feel like gazing deeply into a hobo's eyes.

You've all been reading up on QR codes, right? You might also want to learn to start a fire. Just a tip.

Jim Halloway
Research & Development
Retr

spec Incorporated

As per the World Regains tracker, fruits and flowers that were once blue are once again blue. This includes the echo flowers in the Recollé woods! NPCs seem to be incapable of seeing this color still, however, and will not note any differences. The color does not seem capable of being transferred to anything else, either, and any attempts to do so will simply fade the color of the thing you were trying to use to do that. Furthermore, one thread of at least 10 comments from you from this post may be supplied for one untriggered memory by linking the thread and in explanation putting "June Freebie". This may only be claimed through the rest of June, and may not be claimed after the month ends.

Please feel free to use this post as a network mingle. Every toplevel can be considered a new post, and threadjacking is permitted. No NPC response will be given. Usernames are the character's full real AU names, not aliases or chosen nicknames or usernames, and seemed to have filled themselves in; nothing characters do can change or obscure their names currently.

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if it helps i see to inspire it in people
possibly because i get hit with shit like powers and physical changes before them
though im not alone in that any longer

i think thats a thing that has happened to people
not wanting to be who they see in the mirror of the past
i dont think i was an inherently bad person
but there are things that were
perhaps a little broken
for various reasons
and unfortunately reexperiencing the memories and life of that kid
ive picked up a fair amount of bullshit

both he and i would agree this life is better
however
both he and i are also dead sure somethings up and it cant last

paranoia is apparently a crossuniversal trait

but i think maybe if we put in the effort
its possible to become someone not entirely one thing or the other
and keep the shit that matters most to you
if you try
im not sure because im still in the process of trying to figure out how to hold on or let go but like
i dunno
its better than the alternative isnt it

How does one go about keeping the shit that matters most to you? From your perspective, that is.

Is it something tangible? Writing it down?

it depends on what matters most to you
for me thats my family
and its a little harder in some cases than others
since three of them dont know anything about any of this
including the one i used to tell everything to

but with the other two
and even with the three who dont remember

i think for me it means just continuing to love them
regardless of what else overlays itself
and to try not to forget all the things ive done in this life
with them

Identifying what's important first, and then holding fast to that. Like a tether to the self that you want to be.

...And you never wonder if perhaps what you're tethering yourself to is all simply a lie?

i wonder it all the time
thats the hard part
in some cases its easier
or would be easier
because my sister the one who doesnt remember this shit anymore
i loved her
even in that other life
more than pretty much anyone
if anything i love her more now
with two lifetimes of experiences always expanding and always having that centerpoint

its harder with other people
especially people who have their own lives to remember
where they may have seen me differently
or where if they remember certain things
they will come to see me differently

but lie or no
i dont think my feelings about other people are fake
i think maybe the situation was some sort of convoluted lie
although i havent said as much to anyone else really
but what happened after that lie was told
all has to be real doesnt it

I suppose it does, really.

You know, the way you talk about your sister —

...

I think in an irrational sense, I'm afraid that my mother is one of the lies.

i dont know if thats irrational
or at least
i think its the sort of irrational we cant really help being

its a scary thought and one i havent quite figured out what to do with yet

I haven't, either.

Perhaps when one of us does, we can tell the other what we come up with.

id be down

and i realize this like says my name already but like
im dave strider sup
you can hit up my device whenever since i pretty much am awake at weird fucking times

Kit Fawkes. But just Fawkes is fine, it's what most people call me, really.

I appreciate the offer, Dave. I may just have to take you up on that, sometime.

do you do fireworks

np
i have memories and physical shit and item shit and magical superpowers so
even if i cant do more than thats rough buddy i get it
at least i wont ever call you crazy

What a fresh and innovative joke that I've definitely never heard before in my life.

Magical superpowers?

its not a joke like
did your name cause you to learn to do fireworks
if so will you set some off for me
legit asking here

im fast and fuck with time

My name had nothing to do with it but the professor I TA for has a penchant for chemistry on the side, so...

What do you want the fireworks for? Let's start with that before touching on the rest of it.

honestly i just think it would be cool to watch them go off but unfortunately that only tends to happen in july and like
thats an entire month away??

i dunno the more weird serious shit that happens the more i have the urge to go do something dumb and childish just to distract myself i guess

Oh, well.

If it's simply a matter of seeing something explode in the coolest possible way, you should come past the labs on the university campus. We've plenty of that at our fingertips.

thats absolutely the crux of the matter
do i need a pass or anything
or like whenabouts should i drop by

Well, it's summer now, so there are considerably fewer classes to worry about potentially interrupting.

Would I be incorrect in assuming that you're not yet of university age, yourself?

just graduated high school last week

Congratulations. It's an achievement worth celebrating.

You don't need a pass to come onto the campus, though the labs do tend to be kept locked for obvious reasons. You'll have to try swinging past the science wing's classrooms first.

in that case ill come looking for mad science
oh hey do you want me to pretend this app doesnt have pictures of us and say who all i should be looking for

I don't see why not. That sounds charmingly normal, and pleasantly quaint.

You're looking for red hair and a labcoat, approximately 180cm tall. Or 5'11", if you want to insist on feet and inches.

im gonna be the tallish teen with light blonde hair
who is wearing shades indoors

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