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Penelope Raban 6/24 near Apprassage

Hello everyone, I've got a question for everyone. This is something I've been thinking about for a few weeks now, and I'd like to get your opinions on it, as well as possibly some advice. I know a lot of us have been having those wild hallucinomemories lately, and whoever came up with that word is brilliant. And I know a lot of us have been struggling with them because some of them are outright terrifying. What I want to know is if you saw someone that you knew in your hallucinomemories doing something that scared you, or made you afraid, would that affect how you view them here in Recolle? Is this who they were, who they are, or who they will be again, basically. I know that's a pretty weird question, but I'm not really sure how I feel and it got pretty real for me recently. Any thoughts are appreciated, seriously. Cheers, Pen.

Comments

[sotenbori]

Goro Majima I think the way a person tries to be matters.
Goro Majima Right now, in the present. Regardless of what they did before or what they'll do again.
Goro Majima If someone is trying to do right, even for a little while? That's important.

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Penelope Raban Do we really know if it is our past?
Penelope Raban And if it is, isn't it possible that their other side might come back and hurt you?

[sotenbori]

Goro Majima Maybe it could.
Goro Majima But how can you fault someone for something they're trying not to be?
Goro Majima How would you feel if someone held you accountable for something they "remembered" about you?

[splinten]

You're welcome. We thought it was a pretty great portmanteau.

It doesn't seem reasonable to insist that no one be affected by their hallucinomemories in terms of how they imagine others or even themselves.
The experiences are as vivid as a flashback and probably just as capable of throwing a mindset back.
Flip it turnways, though, and that person doesn't necessarily bear the same responsibility for their actions in the hallucinomemory as would the person they were in the thing.
They're undeniably connected to that person, but they're also their own unique iteration and are coming from different experiences and choices.
They're connected, likely overlapping, but they aren't the same.

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Penelope Raban I haven't decided if I am or not.
Penelope Raban But I remember someone trying to kill me, personally.
Penelope Raban And that's the only reason it's even up in the air.

[mincingminuet]

It was you? Clever.

And you think so? That's a good way to put it. Overlapping, and capable of throwbacks. I've felt since the beginning that the two people were tied together and connected, but not necessarily the same. Only reason this is even up for debate for me is I remember someone trying to kill me. That seems reasonable to freak out about. Just a little.

[manufactured]

"Pretty weird question" or not, it's something I've been considering myself lately as well.

Personally, the most I've been able to decide is that it's certainly who we were, if it's truly connected at all. I've had such a sense of mental disconnect from the things I've been supposedly "remembering" that the only conclusion I can draw is that it's our choices now that ought to matter and be considered relevant.

[buncho]

doesnt matter what they were like or are like- if someone tries to scare you, just punch them in the throat

[mincingminuet]

Oh, I get that. There's a real dissonance between the place I'm seeing, and the place I'm living. I don't tend to go around picking fights with monsters and hanging around with knights.

I'm not saying that it changes who you are now, but my concern is that might change in the future. This feels just like the beginning.

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I'm not sure I could even reach this person's throat. I'm smol.

But not quite what I meant. Should I even think about this?

[buncho]

im short too but you just have to jump for it! or bring them to the ground first and then punch them

but yeah dont think about it. deal with stuff as it comes, its easier

[matchbreaker]

Elda Marker You've seen people you know in them?
Elda Marker I haven't yet so I'm curious.

[me_matey]

enough of my real-ass friends have been doin stupid dangerous shit here lately that i dont think my reaction will change much

i will put a motherfucker in a sleeper hold to keep them from gettin themselves 86's, i dont even give a fuck, a slightly bruised friend is better than a dead one.

[sotenbori]

Goro Majima Do you think they'd do it again?

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Penelope Raban I don't know.
Penelope Raban It isn't outside the realm of the possible, even if it isn't plausible.

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Penelope Raban Just one person, but yes.

[mincingminuet]

Yeah, this person's a better fighter.

And I'd like to but doubts, you know? There's so much going on.

[mincingminuet]

I...don't understand that last sentence at all. I had to go on Urban Dictionary.

But yeah, I get it. I've been taking risks too. Good on you though, playing team mom.

[me_matey]

captain's gotta take care of her crew

or some shit like that

[mincingminuet]

Of course.

So you think it's better to ignore what I saw.

[judgementkazzy]

I think it depends. I've remembered things about who I used to be, some of it is pretty cool and some of it isn't.
I don't just want to emulate the bad stuff.
But if I remembered someone I know doing something bad, I would talk to them about it.

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I can understand that.
The only reason I haven't is I'm still processing.
This person tried to kill me. That's why I'm being careful.

[judgementkazzy]

That must have been scary. I can understand taking some time to think about it.
Personally, I doubt who they are now is the same person as who they were then.
Whatever they did in a past life or alternate universe... they don't have to make the same mistakes again.

[mincingminuet]

Better safe than sorry.

And I have my doubts too, but yeah.
Especially about that whole other world business.
The one I keep seeing makes no damn sense. Magic, technology like ours, lizard and rabbit people.
It feels like a video game, and this person is the antagonist.

[judgementkazzy]

If you're worried this person might hurt you, you can always bring a third party with you when you go talk to them. That might help.

Sounds intense. But if the memories feel real, then maybe it was real for you. Or the you that lived it. It's hard to say.
But some antagonists don't stay that way. I mean I guess it depends on the kind of story it is, but...