[Text] From Late Night

[matchbreaker]

[ I mean she's still out in Magatus but there's a thought which has sort of lingered in the back of her mind for a while now and as such more to clear her mind from thoughts of wolves and the thoughts of her own son (including of all things puns, why??? she's going to put out vaguepost in the form of: ]

So does anyone else have children in the memories they've been getting?

To answer my own question the woman I am in my memories has a son and then her son has three children as well.

[ So this tbh pretty young looking 41 year old is a grandmother in her memories but that's beside the point. ]

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[matchbreaker]

[ Senpai...? ]

From overseas?

[ Never felt love that's...

... Sad? Sad and she has no idea how to respond to it. ]

[livingimpaired]

That's right.

He's still in Japan now.
I have to say all the radio silence is probably worrying him.
Or not?
I fear I still don't know how wide range the influence is.

[matchbreaker]

I don't either. I grew up in the city, so outside of business calls, I've not needed to contact people outside the city until contact was lost.

[ . . . So. ]

[livingimpaired]

I shall hope for the best.
There is not much else that I can do.

Still, I am relieved that you have the app.
You could be in his shoes.
A state where you neither know or care that it's been ages since the person that is guarding your children has contacted you.

Perhaps, my ward is right.
I should write horror novels.
But sadly, I don't take enjoyment out of that so I must once more nix the idea.

[matchbreaker]

[ If she didn't have the app, she wouldn't be out here. But then Silver would be alone. And Albert. and... ]

I'm grateful too, at this point. The thought of anything else is terrifying, honestly.

[livingimpaired]

That, too, is love?
You speak of it so freely.
Your children must be exceptionally cared for, Elda Marker.

[matchbreaker]

And responsibility, yes.

I do my best! After all, everyone makes mistakes, but I don't think I can fault myself for my intentions.

[livingimpaired]

I don't think you can, either.
I honestly believe that good intentions are amazing.
They are what make humanity and society "good."
Your intentions are filled with love and the desire to watch over your children.
I don't think anyone could call them truly wrong.
Even the mistakes that you made with your children, you made them because you wanted to ensure their safety and happiness. So long as that remains true, it is only the application that fell apart, not the intent.

[matchbreaker]

[ What... a weird guy. How philosophical. That's so weird. But at the same time, she laughs a little and ... yeah, she's pleased at it here, she leans back in the cave and nods. ]

Pretty much!

Applying it to humanity as a whole seems a little intense, but that's the hope.

[livingimpaired]

I can be a bit intense.
I may not have ever felt love, but I have a great interest in humanity.
I realize that sounds like I, myself, am not human but I am.
I merely mean that I always believe in the good intentions of society.
It's the hope that keeps everyone going.

[ And it's the hope that slowly poisons and kills everyone. ]

[matchbreaker]

How humanist

[ . . . ]

Honestly, I don't entirely disagree though.

[ Entirely... the woman in her memories really, really would though and that thought does drift to her at his statement that he was human despite that wording. ]

[livingimpaired]

Thank you.

It's nice to know that others have such fond thoughts about society, too.
I feel like from what I've seen of this app, the users start to wear down.
But so long as we continue to remind that there is "good", we shall be fine.

[ He's hilarious. ]

[matchbreaker]

No, that's true. There's a lot which is hoisted upon people here, and many people suffer because of it. There isn't a panacea for that, and it's something everyone here needs to work through.

But by and large I think the people of the world do try to do right by themselves and others, face to face.

[livingimpaired]

Right?
No matter what -- that goodness is what is most important.
When you think of the children of your memories.
When you think of your children in reality.
It's the good that remains.

And no matter what horror we remember, it is always the good that remains.
Because humanity lives on hope.

[matchbreaker]

[ Were that was entirely true.

She thinks back on some of the darker parts of her memories, the flames, that girl, the crying.

... humanity lives on hope, huh? How... human. ]

Nostalgia and memory does that overtime, focus more on what's good than what isn't. It's a common enough trick.

[livingimpaired]

There are only a few that can live in darkness.
The rest must strive for the light.
I think that says something well for society, for the world.
For you as someone who strives for light for her children.
Both remembered and held dear in this city.

[matchbreaker]

Honestly, you're making me sound saintly, and I'm pretty sure that's laying it on too thick.

[livingimpaired]

Wishing well the people we care about isn't saintly.
But you are right, it would be laying it on thick to call you a saint.

[matchbreaker]

[ And now it looped around to mildly insulting, w e w ]

Spelled out that grandiose it feels like it anyway

[livingimpaired]

Do you not feel a sense of accomplishment when you make life easier for your loved ones?
Do you not feel better knowing that one day they do not worry?
Is it grandiose or that you've done it so much that you hardly see it as a feat anymore?

[2/2]

[livingimpaired]

You are, unfortunately, still not a saint.
But you are someone who holds the title of mother lovingly.

[matchbreaker]

[ I mean the answer to all of that is... maybe? Maybe? But it's so natural to her, it's like breathing. But she knows that it isn't to everyone, like Albert and as such she just sort of...

... Mmm. ]

Sure do!

[ I mean, that's who she is, right? Especially without a lover of her own, a mother is what defines her. ]

Honestly, that's probably why I'm asking something like this out of the blue, about other people's memories. See if there's anyone else feeling the same way.

[livingimpaired]

Did you find people like that, Elda Marker?

[matchbreaker]

Jury's still out. People are still replying.

[livingimpaired]

Well, hopefully, you will find those who feel the same as you.
It's lonely to feel a certain way and have no one fully understand it.
I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
But your feelings are something pure and kind.
So I'm certain at least one person will share them.

...

You still aren't a saint.