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[recollecters]

hey. looks like you're all busy right now and joanne is down with a cold, so this probably doesn't have to be fancy. r&d doesn't report anything major for the next month so don't be dumbasses and make a problem of your own. don't fuck with the liaison, we're not replacing him. looks like there's some weird fucking stone at city hall now. enjoy that, i guess. pretty sure zee warned you about the stones, but if you broke it, that sucks and we don't know how to fucking fix it yet so good job, idiot. you might need to be a little proactive. r&d probably has something in mind, but good fucking luck getting a straight answer out of any of them but the kid. maybe they'll at least tell zee what they need, though. or if you're chill with the loss, whatever. that's about it. wait, right. joanne wanted to thank two of you for letting her help with holiday shit last month. thanks for not being assholes. the kid likes having stuff to do, i guess. and that's really it. later. Wendy Guo Security/Archivist Retrspec Incorporated Per the mod plotting post, you may use this post to obtain this month's freebie! This month's freebie can be earned by turning in a thread on this post that has 10 or more consecutive comments from you. Please feel free to use this post as a network mingle. Every toplevel can be considered a new post, and threadjacking is permitted. No NPC response will be given. Usernames are the character's full real AU names, not aliases or chosen nicknames or usernames, and seemed to have filled themselves in; nothing characters do can change or obscure their names currently. Additionally, the heart stones from February are still in effect! They will be in effect until 3/3 and will be addressed on the event log. Thanks!

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[pronounces]

do you want to talk about it?
we don't have to here, if you don't want to.

[ ... ]

and
march will definitely be better. even if i have to make sure of it myself!

[servileness]

Not here, not now. Perhaps later after we're all back and all rested? Hopefully, I'll be of better mind to talk about it, then.


Oh, Nazuna. You don't have to go that far.

[pronounces]

then you and i have an ice cream date, okay~ ? ★
i think it makes everything go down just a little sweeter.
whenever you're comfortable, just text me, okay? i'm always here.

you say that like it's a burden! don't worry, don't worry~
you're always taking care of your residents. let niichan help take care of you for once!

[servileness]

[ Clover was part of the group that had too much ice cream, so she stares at ice cream date and thinks, please no, but Nazuna is thinking of her. He's caring for her, and she can't turn that away. She can't. She can't, but.... ]

All right. I'll let you know when I'm ready.







I don't deserve it.

[ A small confession. ]

[pronounces]

[ teasing, playfulness, all of it gets tossed aside: nazuna's heart squeezes immediately on his end. ]

what? that isn't true, clover.
i can't think of anything you could've *possibly* done to not deserve someone to help you.
and that goes for you, or the 'other you'.

[servileness]

You can't think of anything because you inherently think the best of people.

What if I broke something that can't be fixed?

[pronounces]

the fact that you're talking to me about it, right now
and that you were hesitant to talk me about it
tells me that you deserve someone to help you, you know?

if i think the best of people, then i definitely still mean it.
there's nothing you could do, or break, that would make me not want to help you.
promise.

[servileness]

You should stop to think that perhaps I'm hesitating because it's that terrible and it's beyond help. If I broke something that can't be fixed, it's beyond repair, and that's not all right.

You're a good person, Nazuna. You make a fine RA.

[ She types, I'm sorry I'm neither of those. but deletes it before sending. ]

[pronounces]

clover--
that doesn't mean you should be ostracized.
i'm not saying that it's alright! from the way you're talking, there's no way it is...
but, you recognize that whatever it was is that way. that's something, isn't it?

i do really mean it, though. even if it's beyond help, even if it's terrible, even if it's even worse than anything i could ever even think about!
i still love you, and you're still important to me.

was it something that you remembered?

[ a pause, on his end. ]

you are too. you always have been.

[servileness]

[ Oh, no. Clover is going to cry. She is crying, so it takes a little while for her to respond. ]

I don't.... It is and it isn't something I remembered. I don't like thinking about my other... that other person.

But it's not just that. It happened while I was away, in Respatrum. Multiple things happened. I know I'm being vague, but I don't want to be definite. I don't want to put it all into exact words yet.

I'm sorry for unloading this all on you with only vagueposts.

[pronounces]

[ he's physically resisting the urge to run to her dorm right now but he will be patient. ]

it's okay, you can be as vague as you need to be.
i don't mind.
take your time, as long as you need.
and there's nothing unloading about it! i'm always here to listen, no matter how big or small the problem is ~

....i'm gonna take back the ice cream date. when you're ready, why don't you come over?
we can talk about it a little more privately.
sound good?

[servileness]

...All right.

You may be waiting a long while, but all right.

[ Please don't change. gets deleted. ]

[pronounces]

then i'll wait.
if that's all i can do, then i'll wait. ♥

...
of course, i'll still come see you otherwise!
i still have a few months of being a RA left, i want to enjoy it (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

[servileness]

Of course. Let's make your last few months the best yet.

Once we're all rested and caught up on everything we've missed in February, let's attack the rest of the year with gusto.