Albert Wesker (
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002. text // i say it is, then it's true
This is another of those questions in which I'm not explicitly asking for details, if you don't care to share them; I've simply found that shouting into a void is useful, if not a productive use of my time. But now that the matter of our souls has been brought into question, I suppose this feels more relevant than it would normally.
As time goes on and you have more and more memories forcibly shoved into your head, do you find yourself having difficulty keeping your thoughts and reactions separate from those of the person whose memories you're recalling? Or to put it a different way, do you ever feel the lines blurring – do you understand things that you previously thought you never would, or do you find yourself relating to things that you suspect you shouldn't?
And if so, has that sort of shift in perception changed what you believe you deserve?
As time goes on and you have more and more memories forcibly shoved into your head, do you find yourself having difficulty keeping your thoughts and reactions separate from those of the person whose memories you're recalling? Or to put it a different way, do you ever feel the lines blurring – do you understand things that you previously thought you never would, or do you find yourself relating to things that you suspect you shouldn't?
And if so, has that sort of shift in perception changed what you believe you deserve?
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You're seeing things from someone else's perspective, literally. If you're put into that point of view often enough, you'll understand it better.
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Should we have another meeting of the Our Past Selves Needed Serious Therapy Club?
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Might I ask you something, regarding that?
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tw: suicide references and shuji's black humor
...for what it's worth that is exactly my sort of black humor, so
oh good, I wasn't sure but the joke was there
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cw: suicide reference
cw: suicide reference
cw: suicide reference
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[The rings rather close to his own concerns, though he feels no need to say it. Perhaps by merely responding to this, it's obvious enough.]
You said something about lines blurring, and I imagine the degree of this is dependent upon the sort of memories that each person is receiving. The unpleasant ones, particularly, are the ones that stick the most -- and as a result, the ones that resonate more loudly than the others. But if you want my personal experience, I'm merely finding that these memories are very pervasive. I think on them almost everyday, though I don't think I've changed my way of thinking based on the personality of that other "me".
[As far as he knows.]
I take it not all of yours have been pleasant?
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I've a new perspective on several things, but I'm still me. I can say I hope the same is true of you, Albert. But honestly, about deserving - that's for other people to decide, and its based on your actions.
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For another, if that is truly the case, it's possible that there's no one to hold me accountable for anything I've done.
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Something like that. I don’t know if I’d say I’m starting understand new things, but knowing how that other me felt about some things… It can get hard to separate what’s from those memories, and what’s me, you know?
He had about as good a sense of self-esteem as I do, though, so not much change there.
[ He lies, but well. He’s also trying hard not to think about it. ]
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Though I suppose that latter part is a small blessing, at least.
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[ Jack wouldn’t agree that it’s a blessing when your self-esteem is already rock-bottom, but. It is what it is. ]
I take it your memories have been hitting you pretty hard?
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No one in my memories seems to be on the app itself, however; I suppose that's a silver lining in some ways, seeing as I can't think of anyone I want to see badly enough to wish all of this on them.
[...That's mostly true, anyway; there are some that he would want to be here if only because this would be weirdly better than anything they were dealing with back home.]
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but i think i like the person from my memories better than my current self
but... again i don't think there's anything too different coming back to me
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is prompto friending another villain???
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In what way do you mean?
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