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[breakingvoice]

hello everyone! i'm sorry i've kind of been falling behind on my blog posts lately, in case anybody here reads those, but i think everybody on the app understands why! and if people off the app are starting to noti░e changes, they might understand, too... even if (as far as i go) people are just saying nice t░ings about how good my new blue hair looks!

i hope they don't n░tice too much...

um, anyway. i'm still really new to this app and there's a lot i don't know about, so i have a question! actually, a couple. has anyone ever gotten back a me░ory that doesn't seem like it's something you would ever do? and what do you do if that memory isn't just 'y▒▒' doing something horrible, but celebra░ing that you did it?

i think i know the answer to the first one, but pl░ase hear me out on this. and i'm sorry my emoji are missing but the app keeps g▒▒tching them every time i send them, so just imagine me being very serious about asking for h░lp!

thank you.

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[promisedyou]

[Oh, this is definitely something that she can relate to, and it causes her to feel almost uncomfortable as she replies. Not that she minds answering, since her own experiences would help.]

I think the best thing to do is to learn from that experience and try to become a better person -- if you know it's horrible, then you know that you shouldn't do it again, right?

[breakingvoice]

but it isn't... is it something i would do? deep down? is that what these memo░ies mean?

[promisedyou]

No.

It's not. We're not the same people as the ones that we see in those memories. People can change depending on their experiences and their pasts. We're different than our past lives. Maybe it's true that it might have been something that you would have done, that doesn't reflect on the person that you are now.

But I think you can't just run away from those memories, either. They're things that have to be accepted, yet you also need to understand that the you here and now is different from the you from a past life that has done horrible things and the you that is replying to me right here, right now.

[lostapprentice]

[Another one having a crisis... does nobody have compartmentalization as a coping mechanism?

His reply comes from a Ben Solo in light red.]

remember that it's not you. it's the past and nothing more. whatever that person did doesn't reflect on you now.

[breakingvoice]

it can't be that easy. c░n it?

[because she's seen that that helps people, but she's worried, too. she's worried that it's just shutting things away and not dealing with them and that whenever she tells people that she's just setting them up for worse.]

if they're supposed to be making our souls more in tune with the universe with thes░ memories, is it really as easy as saying it's not me?

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[thesettingsun]

Sometimes your past self doesn't have the same personality as you. Sometimes they're actually terrible people. There's everything from 'world-ending supervillain' to 'douchebag who cheats on his wife'.

I use my memories of past me being a scumbag to motivate myself to try harder to be a good person.

[breakingvoice]

to goddess to killer to anything else. i'm starting to learn that.

are you trying to become a better person to prove that nothing they do can change who you are for the worse? because i'm trying to believe that everybody here, on the app, is basically a good person. even if they do have memories going against that.

[manufactured]

I'm not going to offer advice such as "just remember that it's not you in those memories", because I've always found the process a bit more complicated than that. What was done in our past lives happened, whether we like it or not, and if we've committed transgressions against others it doesn't feel right to simply dismiss them. Does it? Those things we remember still happened.

However, there's something to be said for our actions here. We can choose to redeem oueselves; we can prove our own worth as people. And perhaps we can redeem our past lives along with ourselves, should we be so willing.

[breakingvoice]

i don't know if what i remembered is something that she can be redeemed for. i think you have good ideas, but she seemed so... happy. to have done something so terrible.

[selfloving]

Blue hair?

[Concern about how quickly her appearance is changing quickly gives way to the rest of it, though.]

We don't have to talk about this in public, but are you okay, Lina?

[breakingvoice]

blue hair.

i can think of one or two reasons why we should talk in private.

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[lienhearts]

Other me was kind of a punk kid from what I can tell.

[That's. That's only barely the case, actually, but this thing's public and he's not going to admit to anything solid.]

Sounds a bit different from your situation though

[breakingvoice]

a little.

is there anything wrong with being a punk?

[nachetanya]

[ Her text is light purple, same as the color for her brush. That said, her response is perhaps as irreverent as you might expect. ]

I do miss the more regular updates to your blog, if I'm honest . . .

[ Should she even touch that other, the actually relevant part...? ]

But I've been questioning what I'm capable of for a while because of questions like that!

[breakingvoice]

you're capable of really good things. once you have more control over the magic. i know you are.

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[servileness]

[ Clover had been hoping it would take longer than this before Lina remembered anything terrible, but with the world in their memories the way it is... that was an empty hope.

Clover Geteilt ]

What did you remember?

Is it anything you want to talk about in detail?

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[breakingvoice]

[oh. she should've expected this. she sighs on her end of the phone. after Jasmine told her that she's been talking too much in public, she's doing even less well. at least this is private.]

something bad. about me and jasmine. i told her i wouldn't keep any secrets from her but look at how much i've already said. maybe i should just shut up if that's what she wants.

[notyourutopian]

You have to remember that the person in your memories is not you.
They might look like you and even sometimes act like you, but they aren't.
That is another life, being led by another person.
You are not responsible for the things they did.
Or didn't do.

You're just you.

[breakingvoice]

yeah. i'm just me.

thank you. i've been telling that to some other people and i didn't know whether it was the right answer until now. i'm glad we can all come together like this and help each other understand.

[floret]

Jamie Doh I have. Like, um, I committed high treason? And apparently I kept breaking in and out of prison, or something...

[breakingvoice]

oh, um. that's a little more than i was expecting!

you're such a sweetheart, how could you have committed treason?

[dulynoted]

That's a good question. But it sounds like you've remembered something unnerving. Are you alright?

[ He's got to play nice, first. ]

[breakingvoice]

i'm okay. it isn't something i haven't heard about before. but thank you for asking!

are you going to remind me that this isn't me, too? i feel like this is something everyone else has already figured out how to handle...

[axeswing]

my first memory was being face-to-face with a dragon, and i can't really say that that's something i'd ever wanna do.

but your situation sounds complicated.
i won't pry, in case it's painful for you, but the person you were and the person you are now aren't going to be the same.
the 'you' now feels bad about it... that's why you think it's horrible, so it's likely you won't repeat it... if that's what you're afraid of.

[breakingvoice]

i remember dragons, too, and they really are terrifying, so i absolutely know what you mean.

thank you for that. i don't think i would ever be able to repeat it for a lot of reasons but it's good to know that everybody else has what sounds like the right answer to this already.