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It's different circumstances. It's a different world. We're different people. As long as you're cautious, there's less chance of that happening. They say hindsight is 20/20 for a reason, and we have that hindsight even if it's in pieces.

I can't be as easily lost like that. Not anymore and not now that we've experienced it. I won't let it happen like that again. That's why I'm trying to be more open with the discussion of our memories and otherwise.

[ trying is the keyword there. ]

then i should try to be the same. i should try to be more open about things, too.

[it's what she wanted from the beginning, isn't it?]

there's something else, Clover.

i remember dying. again. a second time, in a different place. and she could talk and move and fight this time.

[ ... ]

I have memories that don't precisely line up either. I haven't remembered dying, but there were enough differences in some of my memories to make it seem they weren't in a linear chronology.

so there are... what. different. paths? that all happened to them at once? because i don't know how else to explain it. it's like i'm remembering two different Twos.

i'm just glad i'm not the only one.

I don't know. We don't know enough about their powers to know how their world really worked. Right now I don't have solid proof that two of my memories weren't from the same chronology. It's just a gut feeling, which is silly to base any conjecture on, but that's all I have.

... This may be another question to ask the group chat sometime.

yeah. maybe when things have calmed down a little. i know i made conversation tenser than they should be. i'm sorry. i really am.

i really, really am. i'm trying so hard and that everybody is still willing to talk to me means so much.

(you said we should communicate better.)

[ ... ]

Don't stress too much about it. We do all need to communicate more and better. I started the conversation with a tense topic, so it stands to reason that other tense conversation topics would come up.

We can't run away forever.

you know who i am, you know i'm going to stress about it anyway, but... thank you.

i don't want to run away anymore. i love all of you so, so much and i want to do everything to make sure you know it. and that means talking about when things happen. it means being there for you. it means keeping you all safe.

i know you'd all do the same for me.

[ .... ]

Some things are easier said than done, but we all try our best to do what we can.

that's all anybody can ask. sometimes our best doesn't feel like a lot, but it's still the best we can do right then, and that's okay.

sorry. i've been reading up on self-care. i want to be as kind to myself as i try to be to everyone else.

[ ... ]

Is it working for you? If it is, I'm glad. If you're not there yet, I know you can get there.

it isn't... not working.

thank you. for believing in me.

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wtf i thought i answered this sorry celene!! still private

oh my gosh you're fine!! private

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