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Welcome back, users. Looks like we were able to bring you back online and tracked again...here's hoping the layers are settled now, but the readings are off the chart. We're doing our best to stabilize the city for December while we track some of the magical sources we're picking up. It may take us some time though, so please bear with us!

We may be working through the holidays, too, if this keeps up. But it's okay. You opened the doors and new routes for us to check.

Stay positive, users. December is a special time of the year. What's your favorite holiday tradition? You'd be surprised how thoughts shape things here.

Please take care.

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[ all this talk of Yin and love made Jen wince. the Yin she knew didn't have the capacity to love anyone. she couldn't even love herself. she was committed to having as much fun as she could before she met her (likely untimely) end and that was the proverbial basket she put all her emotional energy in to. anything that wasn't aggression or lust.

but May doesn't need to hear that now. she may come to realize it on her own.

Jen released the lock for her arm and with a loud click popped it free from its socket. May could hold on to that hand for as long as she wanted to, and push back, but damn it, Jen was going to lean forward and draw her up into a hug despite the awkward positioning. ] I know you can do it. I know how strong you are. That's from what I've seen with my own two eyes and not just something I'm saying because of anything in the past.

This ... life. This is your life now, and this is mine. That may not be all we ever have but it's all we have right now.

[ The arm clattered to the floor, dropped, and... well she could apologize for it later, because at that moment, she wanted to hug Jen right back, with all the strength she was known for, openly sobbing into the other woman's shoulder.

She hadn't really resolved anything. She still felt alone and confused, jealous and selfish, but she couldn't process any of it. All that came out was just... despair and pain. But Jen was there, she was warm, and saying such positive things. She was trying so hard to get through to her, and...

May wasn't going to take it for granted. Jen deserved that much. ]

I'm sorry... I'm so so sorry...

[ meh, the arm can survive it, just like they would, too. Jen held May as tightly as she could with one-and-a-half arms. yes, this hurt, and it would probably continue to hurt, but they'd have to leave it behind eventually. Jen can't say it's okay, or that she's also sorry. not without reverting back to the same bad habit and keeping all her feelings repressed. she saw how badly that turned out for Yin. she won't make that girl's mistakes again.

so... she stayed like this. silently supportive, and doing her best not to break down. ]

[ It took her a few moments to gather herself to the point she could speak again, but eventually she did loosen her grip, just slightly, wiping at her face. ]

So... can I come to your mom's wedding?

[ Jen relaxed too, and reached up to wipe at her own eyes. she was just barely able to hold back for once. ] She said I could invite as many friends as I wanted.

Heh. If they haven't picked out a venue yet, I could maybe talk her into renting you and the Mayship out for the event. It would probably be the most extra lesbian wedding in history. [ just imagining that put a soft smile back on her face. ]

Heh... yeah, maybe...

[ May sniffled, letting out a few frustrated sounds before giving a small nod. Ugh. She was a mess. ]

Look, I've... got a lot of shit I gotta work through. But I am making a promise to you here and now that I'm gonna support you and be with you no matter what. I'm in your corner.

I won't doubt that. [ not after this, at least. she's said what she had to say, and if May hadn't disowned her on the spot, she had confidence they'd make it through anything else that came along this time. ] And you should know I'm always here to support you, too. In my own way.

Well, you've got a lot to support.

I used to say corny shit like "I'll always be strong enough to carry us both" but right about now... I think I'm the one that needs to be carried.

Conveniently, I've cleared up the big problems I had at home, so... I think I can take whatever you throw on me. [ figuratively and literally. she jerked her thumb to the side. ]

Are you going back out there? I don't want anyone giving you grief for getting all that off your chest, but I know how people can be. [ it'll be hard to hide how May looks after all that, too. ]

[ May sniffled again, rubbing her face before flashing that trademark grin. ]

Nah. One of the benefits of being a legit badass is no one tries to fuck with you. But we also all respect each other here and understand we all got our shit we deal with outside the ring.

Heh. Alright, if you're sure. [ she bends down to pick up her arm, and then reattaches it. ]

Still, if you want to cut out and grab a bite to eat or something, I have no plans tonight. [ now with both hands at the ready, she can put them up in a defensive posture. ] Unless you want some space. I totally understand that, too.

Some space... some time... But I'll be alright.

Sounds good to me. [ she gives May a pat on the shoulder. ]

I'm going to head out. I'll send you the details once I know more about the when-and-where of the wedding, okay?

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