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Albert Wesker ([personal profile] manufactured) wrote in [community profile] retrospec2017-07-13 07:29 pm

001. text // i'm wide awake the more i sleep

I'll preface this now with the notion that I don't expect anyone to respond with the content of their memories, should this be relevant to them. It's more a question being shouted into the void, because I don't care to keep it in my head any longer. Make of it what you will; treat it as a pure hypothetical if it suits you, it isn't as though I'll know the difference.

But has anyone had the suspicion that they may have been on the wrong side of whatever conflict may have been occurring in these memories of theirs? Or if not something so drastic, perhaps it's just that the person you seem to have been back then was deserving of, at the very least, a solid shake and a slap across the face.

Either way, people like to assert here that whomever you are now isn't the same as the person you're remembering, and I wholeheartedly agree with that notion. However, the question likewise comes up from time to time of whether or not the patterns we recall are what we're destined to fall into again.

That possibility becomes decidedly more difficult to disregard when the memories you receive are of someone that you have neither the interest nor the desire to become.
elevelvetor: (Ⅰ. the magician)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-14 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ ...it takes a bit, because she really doesn't know how to deal with hallucinomemories, but. she'll reply. ]

perhaps it was something like a date? i was with a young man.
except, well.
this is actually rather hard for me to admit, because it's incredibly unbelievable, but apparently i had never seen a fountain before; i had only heard of them, and referred to them as something that "makes sport of water."
and i also believed there were "fountain spirits" in them that were responsible for granting wishes, and my yen spending was an opening bid to each of the trinity for my wishes.

i'm aware i am in some ways very sheltered, but the one in my hallucinomemories is worryingly naive. and excited to learn about the world.
elevelvetor: (22. ace of wands)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-14 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
given its contents (and the contents of another hallucinomemory) i cannot believe she is a terribly bad person?
however yes, unsettling is the word i would use.
but perhaps i will be proven wrong and this naivety leads her down a path of villainy...

regardless! did you make this post because you would like to shake and/or slap the person in your hallucinomemory things?
elevelvetor: (27. five of wands)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-16 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
what do you believe he deserves at most, in that case?
elevelvetor: (38. two of pentacles)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-16 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
i see.
i hope it's only a shake and a slap, in that case. if your minimum becomes your maximum, then your... other self, or whatever people would like to think of them as, is not quite as bad as he could have been.
if that makes sense.


[ she's personally rooting for this girl who is her-not-her to be less of a weirdo so, like, you know. ]
elevelvetor: (ⅩⅥ. the tower)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-17 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
appreciation noted. i hope you get nicer hallucinomemorythings in the future!
and i hope that mine are not always so
hm.
full of genuine wonderment and awe at incredibly ordinary things.


[ 8( ]

it makes me feel like a kid again, which sounds more pleasing than it really is.
"young at heart" should stay solely at heart.
elevelvetor: (Ⅴ. the hierophant)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-19 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ lmao wait 'til she remembers she's on a journey to save someone from being a doorknocker. ]

with luck, hope, and etc.
until then though, it's a matter of dealing with it...
another question, while we're on the topic: how do you deal?
a friend of mine said you should tell people, but not everyone's going to have visions they'd like to share, or could without sounding a bit
well
off.
elevelvetor: (46. ten of pentacles)

[personal profile] elevelvetor 2017-07-20 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
that's quite a sound plan for the time being, at least. perhaps i'll try to consider them as that as well...
thank you. i'm aware it's not entirely a good idea to solicit advice from strangers, however your insight has been nice.