001. text // i'm wide awake the more i sleep

[manufactured]

I'll preface this now with the notion that I don't expect anyone to respond with the content of their memories, should this be relevant to them. It's more a question being shouted into the void, because I don't care to keep it in my head any longer. Make of it what you will; treat it as a pure hypothetical if it suits you, it isn't as though I'll know the difference.

But has anyone had the suspicion that they may have been on the wrong side of whatever conflict may have been occurring in these memories of theirs? Or if not something so drastic, perhaps it's just that the person you seem to have been back then was deserving of, at the very least, a solid shake and a slap across the face.

Either way, people like to assert here that whomever you are now isn't the same as the person you're remembering, and I wholeheartedly agree with that notion. However, the question likewise comes up from time to time of whether or not the patterns we recall are what we're destined to fall into again.

That possibility becomes decidedly more difficult to disregard when the memories you receive are of someone that you have neither the interest nor the desire to become.

Comments

before the punching but after the texting??

[thesettingsun]

Hallucinomemory me had several issues. I hope I'm not going down that path... Some of the things he does seem like me but taken to an extreme.

And then some of them are just totally inexcusable and stupid.

[scythegun]

Sounds like you've been having fun.

I suppose some of us are experiencing memories that would paint us in a negative light, but that doesn't necessarily mean we're bound to repeat that. I'd say circumstances are pretty important, wouldn't you?

[liberal_arts]

This is a lot of supposition with no actual proof, of course. Personally, I find the suggestions of these 'memories' deeply uncomfortable if they are true, for reasons I can't quite put to words.

I'm told it's disassociation. But who really knows?

[elevelvetor]

well, i haven't had anything particularly malicious...
but i did have a hallucinomemory where i poured a total of 3mil yen (a little under $26,500 if conversation rates hold true) into three different fountains.
for wishing purposes, you see, except i'm almost certain i didn't make a single wish the entire time.

replace all of those "i"s with "a woman who seems to be me but i am not entirely certain is actually me because we actually have very different clothing styles, hair color, and eye color, and i don't really know what to make of these hallucinomemory things anyway".

[feistytrader]

If it helps any, I think I might have been part of a cult.

[accordance]

I believe that would be determined by whether you choose to allow yourself to let history repeat itself.

[wantshappiness]

I haven't regained that many memories but the ones I have are very unsettling. I keep thinking if I find more maybe it was a mistake or I'm just misunderstanding but it seems to be having the opposite effect.

I think I prefer the hallucinomemories where I just remember information and facts...

[overtwohundred]

that's a hell of a wall of text if i've ever seen one

[vendettastool]

The person that I am now is not the same person that I've been seeing. I think that maybe what we see in the hallucinomemories shouldn't force us to change to fit them, but we should take from them what we can to go forward. Maybe there is something in them that can help us later on.

[crudest]

so what'd you do and was it any fun

[scarlet_devil]

...I am under no illusions that my... other self is quite evil, being a would-be conqueror.

[sivard]

Honestly, I haven't actually remembered anything about my other self. I remember bits and pieces, but nothing about whoever he was.

But no matter who I was then, I'm me. That's how I like looking at things.

[matchbreaker]

I think it's more healthy to think of it as people apart. But I know that's difficult, it's been hard for me because - you've remembered what "you" were feeling then too, right?