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[recollecters]

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[servileness]

That choice involves danger. It always does.

You know that.

[breakingvoice]

i do know that. and i'll put myself in as much danger as it takes and i'll keep doing it until all of us are out of danger. not just me.

[servileness]

No. If you can plan and be any type of cautious or safe, you should. Remove what dangers that you can before tackling a problem.

I decided to put myself in as much danger as I could and forgot myself. Please remember that.

[breakingvoice]

[what dangers she can. so everything except herself?]

right. i'm sorry, Clover. i just... want things like this to stop happening so badly.

[servileness]

You do. I do. We both do.

A Retrospec user resorted to murdered, and we're all still in danger.

[breakingvoice]

yeah. we are. sometimes i just wish i were smart enough to predict what things are going to happen before they do, like Detective Togusa tries to do. maybe i could keep people safe like that.

[servileness]

Sometimes, even if you know what's going to happen, finding a way to stop it is nigh impossible.

Don't be so hard on yourself.

[breakingvoice]

i know. i know i can't be in front of everything, i know i can't stop some things even if i know they're coming, i know i can't save everybody. but i have to try.

i don't want anybody else to feel what i felt.

[servileness]

You can try, but don't run yourself into the ground for it.

It's more realistic to try to change things little by little than altogether all at once.

[breakingvoice]

[you can't tell her what to do.]

i think we left the realm of realism a few months ago, but i see what you mean. i just hope there's time.

[servileness]

[ SHE DID NOT DIE FOR YOU TO BE A BIGGER IDIOT. ]

This is our reality now, so what's considered realistic changes with it. Even so, there are some things that remain constant.

I tried to change things on a bigger scale in August.

[breakingvoice]

[oh, no, of course not, but Lina can do bad all by herself.]

what were you trying to change?

[servileness]

[ she will throw down, lina. ]

All the darkness in me. All my doubts, all my fears.

[breakingvoice]

[oh now the girl who couldn't even get screen time in branch C wants to fight]

oh, Clover...

i know i'm not her client anymore but the other me's therapist's number should still be good. have you called her yet?

[servileness]

[ the girl who couldn't show up in branch b or c would straight up try to murder, not thrown down.]

Yes. It won't help.

[breakingvoice]

[but isn't murdering a TYPE of throwing down :thinking: ]

i didn't think it would... sigh. i wish we had the kinds of problems that had answers people who aren't on the app could give.

i can look for a therapist on the app, if you want. or if you don't think therapy will work at all, i can just. ask you to talk to us more, but i don't feel good about asking that.

[servileness]

[ it's not the type of throw down clover wants to do, and four's vision is more like a rip out or a beat down. ]

You can ask. I can't guarantee how I'll reply. I don't mind being open, if you are.

I am not much for telling my secrets to people I don't know or trust.

[breakingvoice]

[they're good sisters. they love each other.]

i understand.

is there anything you want me to be more open about?

[servileness]

What is it that you're hiding?

[breakingvoice]

[hey. wow. okay, Clover. looks like the beatdown is already starting.]

i'm not hiding anything, i'm just waiting for better times to bring certain things up.

[servileness]

Is that so?

What do you consider a better time?

[breakingvoice]

i don't know if there's going to be a good time.

[servileness]

Ergo, you won't bring it up, keeping it hidden.

private

[breakingvoice]

fine, Clover.

Two went catatonic because her song went out of control and turned the orphans she was caring for into one single gigantic mindless monster that she had to kill with her own two hands. it was laughing and crying and screaming for her because they knew they wanted Auntie Two and she was laughing and crying and screaming with every attack until her mind snapped and she couldn't speak or move or think anymore and she just stopped.

all because she didn't understand her Intoner powers, something went horribly wrong, and she lost something she loved more than anything else in the world, and the only thing she could do was grieve until she broke.

i hope this is a good time for you to hear that.

private

[servileness]

[ ... ]

I'm sorry.

Two was still a good person. Even if she was ignorant, she was still a good person. Just like you are. She may have broke and lost herself, but she didn't set out to cause that tragedy.

That is something to think about. You have a better chance to understand her powers.