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[recollecters]

Happy New Years, users. I'll cut to the chase; the barrier we instilled a few months ago is decaying quickly and we're sorting through the new data as fast as we can. This barrier was originally designed to contain a rogue error. There are several of you who have taken care of this issue and from here we will handle the rest...thank you. The influx of data will help us decode our next steps. As mentioned, we've spent December tracing several magical sources that are coming up in our readings. We're doing the best we can to trace Clarence--Mr. Vanderweele, and corral the effects he's altering in the city. I believe we're ready to tear down the firewall and begin exploring further. If our information is correct, we're really breaking the boundaries of the layers we've discovered lately! It's exciting, don't you think? The only information I can offer is that we will need you to be strong no matter what happens. We believe things have changed outside of security measures we've set in place, though we will need more data to understand the best way to stabilize the city from his control. We understand if you cannot and do not wish to help, but please know we're doing everything we can. Please take care. Joanne Wiseman Technician 2nd class Retrspec Incorporated Characters' display names are the same as whatever has been previously chosen and are permanently locked in! Please feel free to use this post as a network mingle. Every toplevel can be considered a new post, and threadjacking is permitted. No NPC response will be given. As a friendly reminder, you may also claim one of this month's freebie by submitting a thread from this mod post. This thread must be 10 comments from you and submitted before AC closes.

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[servileness]

You're not incorrect. It's sad how the world is.

Do you feel like you've escaped your wheel? It sounds like you do.

[usurpers]

You don’t usually escape wheels to be free. You break them.

[servileness]

I tried that. Once.

[ He should know what happened next. ]

[usurpers]

[ i shouldn’t write tags at 5:30am and misread shit ]

You did what you did, and there were people in the way.
It sounds like most wheels, but the ends aren’t always the same.

[ read: clover did nothing wrong ]

[servileness]

[ SHE DID A LOT WRONG. ]

Do you really think I should try again?

Every time I think I can do better, something reminds me I'm not what I want to be.

[ ie. she's a monster. ]

[usurpers]

No. I’m just saying you don’t have fault in what happened.

Can I ask you something?

[servileness]

[ It'd be so easy for her to agree, to sweep away all her fault. It's what she instinctively wants to do, but she's remembered enough to know just how like Four that is.

She leaves her fault aside. ]

You may ask.

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[usurpers]

[ it was my fault. ]

How are you with your family?

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[servileness]

[ stop blaming yourself for something that couldn't be stopped, eren.

Clover is dumb, but she's not stupid. She sees his thread with Lina. ]

I imagine Lina's told you enough.

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[usurpers]

Since October. And Rose. And Jasmine when she was still on the app.
But that’s only their side.

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[servileness]

If you know all that, it's not hard to figure out how I'm doing.

I'm not doing well.

With my sisters or with myself.

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[usurpers]

How much of it has to do with what you’re all remembering?

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[servileness]

Of course, part of it has to do with that, but it's not all of it.

We've been broken since before Retrospec appeared in our lives, and they all choose to keep us broken in their own way.

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[usurpers]

There’s no way to put the pieces together?

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[servileness]

If it were possible, don't you think it would have happened already? If it were possible, shouldn't it have happened already? If there was a way, shouldn't I have thought of it already? Shouldn't WE have?

SHOULDN'T WE BE A FAMILY? But WE'RE NOT. WE'RE NOT A FAMILY ANYMORE!

JASMINE IS OFF RETROSPEC AND HAS PROBABLY GONE BACK TO HATING ROSE AND THINKING THAT EVERYTHING IS ROSE'S FAULT AGAIN. I'M TOO SCARED AND TOO GUILTY TO LOOK AT ROSE HALF THE TIME. VIOLET IS HERSELF AND DOESN'T TRY OR TRIES TOO LATE BECAUSE SHE'S OFF IN HER OWN LOONY WORLD AND DOESN'T WANT TO TALK LIKE SHE'S IN THIS WORLD. LINA FUCKING VICTIMIZES HERSELF EVEN AFTER SHE TELLS US SHE'S "NOT DOING THANKSGIVING." A "DINNER WON'T FIX OUR FAMILY." NO FUCKING SHIT, SHERLOCK! OF COURSE IT WOULDN'T!

IT DOESN'T TAKE A FUCKING ROCKET SCIENTIST TO FIGURE THAT OUT. IT CERTAINLY DOESN'T TAKE A STUPID LITTLE FOOD BLOGGER.

DOES THAT MEAN WE SHOULD STOP TRYING? DOES IT?

FUCK THAT FUCK HER FUCK EVERYTHING FUCK THIS I'M DONE I'M TIRED I HATE THIS I HATE EVERYTHING

I HATE IT ALL

[ She types all that out before she registers it, and when she does, she deletes it.

Worst of all, she'd still do anything for her family to be whole again. She thinks, if destroying the world would mean her family could be whole again, she would. Even if she hates her family more than the entire world sometimes. Even if she hates the entire world more than her family. Even if she hates herself most of all.

Even if she didn't hate anything, she would. ]

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[servileness]

I would like to think it's possible.

My family is the most important thing to me in the whole world. I would do anything for my family. I would do anything for my family to be whole again.

private that shit was LIT

[usurpers]

[ eren knows a story like this one.

he’d do anything, anything in the world, for his family. even if it meant he’d become the world’s enemy, even if it meant he wouldn’t be a part of that family anymore. to see them whole sufficed eren more than being a part of it. he’d do anything. ]

Like to and what it is are never going to be the same things.

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[servileness]

Life isn't fair, but it should be.

If you work hard enough, your efforts should be rewarded, but that's not how it is.

I'm really tired, Eren.

[usurpers]

I know the feeling too personally.

[servileness]

Did something new happen?

[usurpers]

I remembered enough to change.

Me and Elliot argued a few weeks ago but things haven’t been the same since . . . A while. I don’t know what to do to turn things around before I can’t.

[servileness]

What did you argue about?

What is it that you need to turn around? If you feel that something has turned and should be turned back, pinpointing that may lead somewhere.

[usurpers]

That I understood my past self, what I did, and I don’t feel like there’s a big difference between us. In the same situation I’d do it all again.

It was that or let humanity drop dead.

[servileness]

[ ... ]

Eren. You want to be a paramedic now.

Before I say anything more, why do you think you two are that similar?

[usurpers]

I haven’t even been thinking about Paramedicine lately.

[ . . . ]

Because I’d do the same thing. I’d make the same choices under the same circumstance. Especially when there was no other choice I agreed with.