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I guess...

Other than the scar? Fine. It doesn't really hurt, so that's good.

It really is. I mean, I know it's a huge issue with your job, but at least you're not puking blood or curled up in pain because somebody decided to reenact whatever caused it. I I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to be around to help you.

It's a small blessi is that why you weren't at school?
Are you okay?
Have you been eating?

yes I don't know. for now, yes. just don't know how long it'll last and how bad i'm gonna be in for it, the signs just don't look that good and no, not really look, there's stuff that's better explained in person, but this isn't about me. this is about you. did you get all the help you need already? i'm not particularly great with stuff like this since I haven't gotten a scar like, ~ever~, but i got the number of a doctor who's pretty good and on the network as well, so that might be worth a shot if nothing else helps. he's got healing magic

Where are you? We can meet up. Somethings are more distressing than scars.

We have magical doctors now?

yeah i dunno, where do you want to meet? i'm just hanging out close to the river, but if we're playing compare our flashback damages then something more closed off would be better where do you meet your actor friends? and seems like it. remember how I tried to block a blade with my bare arms last month? that's how i found out.

I don't really hang out with my coworkers.
The river should be fine, I think. There aren't a lot of people there now, right? Let me get the makeup.

I'm glad they could fix that for you.

thanks you sure about that? it's pretty cold

I think I'm automatically adjusting to make myself comfortable now.

Really? man, that's so handy! i'm jealous, there's a breeze that keeps making my ears grow cold, but if i pull my jacket up its too warm do you know the little summer cafe next to the stream at [insert address here]? we can meet there, there's some stone stairs we can sit on without getting bothered

Try getting earmuffs?

I've seen it. I'll probably be by in an hour.

I'll think about it k, i'll see you there

[When Shouto arrives he will find Cutter perched on the far corner of one of the big stone steps, wearing jeans and cuddled into an oversized orange hoodie with the hood up. His pose seems relaxed, but his shoulders form a tense line and his gaze is distant as he stares at the water.]

[Shouto's there in the hour he said it would take, in a hoodie that's covering most of his face. The bag at his side is full of makeup that he doesn't know exactly how to use, but that's for later.]

Hey.

[Cutter's reaction is painfully slow when he blinks and turns to Shouto, taking in his looks before he snorts and raises his hand in a lazy wave.]

Hey. I don't remember agreeing to going in partner look.

[He gives him a lopsided smirk that quickly falls when he realizes that he is showing his teeth that way. Jerking his head back to the water Cutter presses his lips together and keeps his eyes lowered as if that can hide their new striking red color.]

You look like I remember you now.

Hoodies are comfy.

[But with Kirishima's eyes like that and teeth like that... he's starting to look like the guy in his memories.

He'll take a seat on the stairs next to Cutter and look out at the water.]

... So do you. Or at least a little more like him.

Huh? I don't remember anybody looking like me.

[He stops and frowns, belatedly noticing the obvious flaw in the logic of his surprise.]

Yeah... But you'd probably be seeing through your double's eyes.

Right?

Yeah, but still-!

How can I start to look more like myself if I already am?!

You're looking more like him, not yourself.

I didn't have a scar. I didn't have half and half hair.

But my double does. So I get it. I guess.

You were still always clearly recognizable as yourself.

[While Cutter is what? Turning into a vampire-werewolf?]

What kind of weird punk wears his hair like this?

[He tugs on a lock of hair, a mix of red and white.]

A lot? I mean, I've seen people pay for having spiked up grey hair with rainbow tips and they weren't even real punks, they just liked it like that.

[He shrugs his shoulders. Split in two hair was mostly for rebellions teens from what Cutter can tell, but that sort of fits Shouto too, doesn't it?]

Does it really bother you that much? The white should be easy to dye over.

It didn't before.

[But now it's annoying. The hair was fine, the scar is just... unacceptable.]

I... I don't know. I feel like I'm losing myself and turning into my double.

Sorry. Nothing I've had to deal with has been as bad as your stuff.

Tch. Tell me about it!

[Grabbing a pebble he stands up and hurls it into the water. It doesn't skip, but at least there's a small splash as it goes under.]

I have been worried about that right from the get-go. That we'll lose touch between what's true and what's just fabricated from those memories or whatever they are.

[Jamming his hands into his pants pockets Cutter gives Shouto a wry smile.]

But some monster teeth and a scar like that is hard to ignore, isn't it? I want to fight against those things, but I just don't have no clue how! It's frustrating!

[Shouto watches the pebble go down without making a move of his own.

But he's looking down and away when Cutter tries to smile at him.]

It's hard to fight it when it seems to be ourselves.

... Hey, did you ever get any memories of your double's parents? Family life? That kinda stuff...?

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