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- ccs: syaoran li,
- d. gray-man: lenalee lee,
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- persona 5: akira kurusu,
- persona 5: goro akechi,
- resident evil: albert wesker,
- rwby: yang xiao long,
- tokyo esp: rinka urushiba,
- tov: alexander von cumore,
- tov: yeager,
- yugioh: malik ishtar
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I wish she had confided in me sooner. I couldn't have seen this coming. No one could.
I don't know how different things would be if I knew sooner. Like, if I bonded with her strongly over this maybe I would have stayed home in Seattle and never even gotten this close to everyone here in the first place. My life could be completely different. So could yours.
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look i dont want it to sound like im upset at u. im more upset at like
circumstance i guess
like i said its complicated.
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Which it still is.
I just didn't think this would be such a big deal now after what we talked about.
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its fine, ok? aint no use wastin time on being upset about shit i didnt even know. that u didnt know. or how it might have changed things for any of us.
at least im gonna keep tellin myself it is till i start believin it.
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I'm sorry.
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i guess i just wasnt as over things as i thought. i should be the one apologizing
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I was just thinking about how happy my mom was. How relieved I was.
I mean I didn't even text you right when it happened, you had to find out like this.
That's on me.
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i guess im not sure im really worth all that consideration, all my hang ups aside. its ur mom, ur life, not mine.
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But you're still my friend.
And I don't like my friends talking as if they're not special to me.
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crist jen makn me cry cant evn typ goddamm
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Where are you right now?
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the tears i mean im at the rcw gym
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[ thanks to the Legion Ring, Jen can easily drop what she's doing and drop in on May at the gym in just a couple of minutes. literally, dropping in at the front door from the sky and walking in like it's a perfectly normal way to get around.
so much for using the ring just for emergencies. this did kind of count, though. ]
May? Where are you?
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"She's a bit of a mess at the moment. Is she gonna be okay?" [ the wrestler asks, a slight British accent in his tone. ]
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Yeah, don't worry. I'll take care of it. [ which is a statement that falls flat of confidence as soon as she can hear the echos through the door. Jen hurriedly pushes her way in and navigates the aisles until she can find her friend. ]
Oh, god. [ at the sight of her, Jen approaches more cautiously. that's her fault, isn't it? should she really be here? ] Hey. [ "hey"?? she helps herself to a seat right by May, her body all tense. ] I'm here, May.
[ for all the good it may do them. ]
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May sniffled, looking up at Jen with puffy eyes. ]
I don't... even know why I'm crying. I should be happy for you. I'm such a stupid, selfish bitch...
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[ she reached up to put her hand on May's shoulder. ] It makes you honest. Same as you've always been. [ as far as Jen could speak from memory. ]
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[ May reached to rest her hand on Jen's, giving it an almost shockingly weak squeeze given what May was capable of. ]
I hate... that I only seem to find the worst parts of myself lately.
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The world's been hard on you for a long, long time. [ that's not to excuse her behavior. or how she turned out. but at the same time, Jen can't blame her for any bitterness or resentment for dashed expectations. ]
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[ Emotional as she was, nothing was filtering her words. She didn't even think about what she was saying. It just... spilled out. ]
I'm trying... so hard to be what she wanted me to be.
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as if Jen was somehow to blame for choosing to live in that scenario.
she swallowed the lump in her throat, but a bitter taste remained. ] I don't think she was that good for you.
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... I'm gonna let you explain yourself. [ Even her tone had changed. There was something... icy about it. The anxiety and despair was still there, but... something else had left. Those words had an implied edge to them. That Jen had better have a good explanation for having said what she just did. ]
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after drawing her hands free, Jen rose to her feet, paced over to the wall of lockers and put her right hand to the face of one. ]
With things being quieter, I've had more time to think about everything that happened months ago. Putting together the bits and pieces of Yin's life. Like, who she knew, how she acted, what was going through her head when she did or said things, and I -
[ she turned back to May, frowning. disappointed. ] I don't see how you could depend on her. She was self-destructive. If she wasn't under the influence of something, she was just so tired, angry. Bitter. She felt like the world went out of its way to rob her of life at every turn, and she was just marching on to spite it — No. She was moving toward her own self-destruction.
You saw it, too, right? Please tell me you did. [ at this point, Jen sounds desperate. that the opinion has to be validated for the sake of them being able to see eye-to-eye. like she doesn't want to be the bearer of bad news but there's no other person who could possibly carry this task. ]
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And immediately pushing herself against Jen, her forearm against the other woman's chest and the other pinning that hand to the locker it was on. In her eyes was... not anger, at all. It was pain. Tremendous, crippling pain. ]
And you don't think I wanted to march with her?! I was abandoned! I was homeless! I was shit on the bottom of life's boot! She and I had every goddamn right to be tired, angry, and bitter.
We understood that about each other. We held each other in the lowest points of our lives and kept ourselves sane. What you call self-destruction was...
It was just that. It wasn't ever gonna get better for us... at least we weren't alone...
I loved her, Jen. And now she's gone. And you sit there, with her face and tell me she wasn't good for me? You wanna just go ahead and shoot me in the heart?
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It's my face, too, May. My face.
[ Yin never showed this kind of weakness. not since she finished up her time at the hospital. not since she saw the way that her family looked at her whenever she looked so hurt and alone. she couldn't stand to show it. couldn't bear to be the source of anyone's pity. the transformation was immediate.
this isn't Yin's face because Yin wouldn't be pleading with May right now. she would have lashed back with all her strength; her eyes glowing red and voice aflame. ]
You're not at that low point in your life anymore. You're doing so much better. I mean - just look at where we are right now. You're doing what you love, aren't you? People know your name. They cheer for you, they look up to you. I look up to you. I always have.
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